so crappy and good?

Ok so ran yesterday outdoors as it was nice here...ok well above 40 degrees. My time was awful. So how do I reward myself I overeat. Not bad food but a ton of it.

And today, no work out at all. Why? Because I have a job interview. At my level in the org chart job interview is actually several (in this case five) interviews over the course of the day. It's draining. And these were especially weird since I wasn't applying for a job position that exists but rather the company is going through a re-org and is looking for talented people to help them rebuild. The day is spent really explaining in detail my talents and stregnths and now hoping that they can create something that works for me. And this is the good part of the day.

The bad part. Well first I ate like crap all day. Likely three times the amount of food I should have eaten. I will feel worse when I see the scale tomorrow. Second I want to call SP and share how it all went but I can't..or don't want to. How do you share all those details when the other person is sleeping with someone else? Maybe I'm weird but if your best frined is supposed to be your life partner and you break up you lose your best friend too. How can you share this stuff when they are sharing it with someone else. Then I get mad because she's moving on. If not in emotional intimacy at least physical intimacy which eventually will lead to emotional intimacy. I'm not over it yet...at least not fully. So how can she be? Yet on new years eve before the fight we were joking on the couch acting ....well like us. It depresses me that she could be doing that with someone else. And the third shitty thing? The replacement appliance came today...wrong color and gas instead of electric....wtf???